Growing Within

Well, I did call this "Life in the 40's". Here I am. Divorced twice and better at being in my 20's than when I actually was 20 something. I was so serious growing up. I found out later that I was, very much so, still growing. I hid behind books, volunteer work, and being a tomboy to fit in and here I am now doing the same thing, but with pizzaz. I mean I literally I am more outgoing and available to everyone; I definitely don't hide. I had a funny reaction at my 20 yr reunion, a few years back. I either got, "You haven't changed a bit" or "You are so much more outgoing." I guess I didn't allow myself to be available. You know...to the world. As we all grow to accept ourselves, we learn it doesn't matter. Be happy with yourself and you can definitely give better to those around you. My sister with ten children...I use to be jealous because I wanted children so very badly, but you know she and my brother did give me children in my nephews and nieces. I also have the best sister-in-law and brother-in-law. Just watching them through all these years is beautiful. They love those children and it's easy to give to them.
Watching them taught me there is so much more to happiness when you find your own own. After that, it's easy to share to those around you.