Full Moon Beach Night

So I hear that the full moon is rising, and this is what we decide to do in St. Augustine!!! Beach Party!!! It has been awhile since I've done this, so why not. Thanks Jim, Beth, Peter, Jackie, Abbie, Kevin, and Babycakes!!!! This was a blast.

Guess What?!!! Full Moon Rising is every month!!!

My Side of the Yard

I have figured out that grass is never greener, just it could a different kind of grass. After my last post, I wanted to post something more peppie. As I wrote, I am surrounded by alot of children and wonderful children, so I am not childless. With that thought, I realized I have been able to experience different things than my sister, brother, and my god sister. I know sometimes my life sounds exciting to them too and they can't pull away from their path that god paved for them. I have been really fortunate to have the grace to find ways to fulfill my heart in other ways and take advantages of all the positive things that are presented to me through a "different kind of yard".

1. I have lived in Vietnam, New York, Virginia, California, back to VA, and Florida.

2. I got to vacation in Illinois, Arizona, Nevada (Las Vegas, Lake Havasu, Lake Mead), Texas, Northern California, So. Cally from Va, Va. from Cally, Hawaii, South Carolina, North Carolina, Orlando, Fort Lauderdale, Bahamas, Mexico (this was sometimes monthly excursions to Baja), Ohio, Niagara Falls, Canada, and some of those places over five times in different spots!!!

3. When I had extra cash to spoil the kids, I splurged on them (of course it was when I was single) and it was always a highlight to be able to splurge on the kids and my family.

4. I got to go camping with Gunther (my ChowChow) on any weekend I wanted. We just jumped in the van and picked a beach. Sometimes we just drove up the Pacific Coast until I was tired a pulled into a beach campsite for the weekend. It was great!!! and peaceful. I really could have been granola and lived like a true "beach bum."

5. I can eat whatever I desire with no squeamish sounds like EEEEWWW! Actually I did love grossing the kids out as well as the parents!!

6. As much as I love all the children, I always have an out.

7. I quit saving money the "Future" planning of kids. I now plan for retirement.

8. My Insurance bill is pretty affordable and my auto insurance will always stay the same rate.

9. I don't need more than a one car garage or keep several cars around for when kids get driver's licenses.

10. I can live in a 1 or 2 bdrm place comfortably. (If my family visits, we'll rent a house for the week then, except at the lake...We're soooo prepared)

11. I traded a minivan in for a 4dr sedan.

12. My next trade will be the Accord for the two seater convertible. O.K. maybe a 4 seater. a two seater maybe tooo drastic.

13. I don't really have to worry about the "birds and the bees" conversation. I can just be a great support to the adults.

14. I don't have to call in sick for anyone, but myself. (I would prefer getting a day off to spend time at home with cuddly kids)

15. I don't have munchkins raiding my wallet!!!

Hope this pepped up my site!!!

Once in a Blue Moon

I have accepted my fate that I will not be able to have children, but every so often I really creve having children. I usually am able to get my fix through family and friends and their children because they have always made me very special to them. Kevin has twelve grandchildren, but moving to Fl has limited our time to see them and I am having the "Moment". I read about my sister and brother's children. I speak to my godchildren and I watch all these people grow into their own and miss them dearly.
I have never PMS'd, but it seems that my internal self PMS' over my non -child bearing body. I keep this to my self most of the time because, yes, I do crave having children still. I just allow my faith to heal those feelings and it passes for another 7 months to a year. Maybe menopause will fix this in a few years.

Where did this come from?

Well, the first moment Kevin goes back to Virginia to check on things, what do I do? I went to the Asian Market in Jacksonville and spent 2 hrs in that place with my saliva producing mouth, drooling over...the "weird food". I have always made Vietnamese food, but craving dried shrimp and off the wall veggies? Not really. So here I was stocking up and sauces, chili paste, steamed bun rolls, special rice flour to make stuff at home, rice noodles, fish sauce, and on and on. I sat in the car looking at my five bags of special "Groceries" and realized...they were mine: not my mom's, but MINE! I actually was throwing sesame balls(so delish!!) with sweet bean inside down my mouth while I was driving. I found Thai tea to drink on the way home too.

I am so glad I unloaded and put stuff away while Kevin was gone because there was some odor and it always goes away, but I think it's left over from the store and it got stuck in the plastic bags. The odor...fishy. It doesn't matter because when it's all prepared, it is sooo awesome to eat. I have no idea how I got to this point where I can shop and cook Vietnamese food. I feel lucky I have this knowledge.